St. Patrick's day sucks

Kidding. Surprisingly I had an okay day. B's leaving tomorrow. I'm pretty sure that tonight was the last night I get to hear his voice for about 10 weeks. =[ I can't even explain the misery going on right now. He left me the cutest fucking letter ever on my tagged account. I love him so much... Even if he's the biggest dork ever haha

YEA ive got aids ahhh anyways kylie i love you and i will see u when i get back hopefully u can come down with my rents mabye to see me grad and i can see u before ait i love you and cant wait to really be wiht you, ya know its just these past months that ive realized u really are my world sure ive been wiht other people and told them no one has ever made me feel this way but when i say this to you i really mean it and i cant fucken explain it when u read this plz dont cry i know i cant be there for you right now and it really hurts me and i kno i cant say i love you enough and i also promise i will come back to you and ill try not to change i guess waht i just really wanna say is that i wnna be with u kylie i realy do were so different but the same and i love it i love youi promise i will write you i will write ever time i can and call u when i get the chance it wil be so nice to hear ur voice but i really cant wait to hold u in my arms again i live for that moment and soon i will have that everyday crazy enough i know but i just cant wait i love you and dont do anything stupid wile im gone or ill kick urs and mystis ass btw ur married so u should get on that haha

Don't ask about the end part bcuz I don't understand it at all man... He can't spell but that's okay. Anything that drives me crazy, doesn't matter with him. I think this is real love. I do.

Wow though. Really wow. I didn't know he really felt all this shit... I'm so fucking happy.

6 months is a LONG fucking time but it's going to be okay. He always tells me it will be okay. Always.

And I believe it all. If I get crushed, this is going to be the worst. He's really my everything. And I can't wait to tell him that I love him in person again. He's going to be in SC for Basic and then TX for AIT. He's going to be a medic... Sweet! Now I won't have to worry about dying all the time haha.

I took a video of him. Just talking to me. And I love it. It makes me cry but it's okay. I lied, I'm not really miserable. Just a little lonely I guess. But he'll be back and I'm so stoked.

N and I got into it a little today about her fucking drug shit. I'm really just getting sick of taking care of everyone else. I want it to be about me a little for these couple months. Once I graduate it will be about my job and my (hopeful) apartment and bills. For now, I want as little stress as humanly possible.

I told her that she needs to stop this shit or I'm really not going to be there for her anymore. She needs to quit pot. I don't totally agree with that but she does over-do it a lot. And her parents need her to. Just until she's done with UA's. Then I don't care if she smokes herself retarded ONCE IN A WHILE!!

But I'm gonna go to bed. Tiff's here and Willy's finally walking. I guess he might be okay. I hope to god he is.

I love B so much. He makes everything seem better.=]